May 2012
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I Don't Know What To Do About My Feelings Anymore
They say if you really “love” somebody, then you’ll never get over your feelings for them. If you do, then you never truly “loved” them. In my case, my feelings for him exist more than ever today. It’s been almost two years and I still haven’t been able to get over my feelings for him. I’m not saying that I’m “in love”, but I do...
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I'm Tired Of Feeling This Way
I’m tired of feeling unloved. Several days at a time can pass by before I hear the words “I love you” out of somebody’s mouth. I believe that those are words everybody should hear everyday from somebody close to them. I’m not saying that if somebody says that to me everyday then I’ll feel better. Not only do you have to say it, but you also have to show it for...
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“Corn. You is my best friend. I don’t want you to do anything to yourself....”
– Cameron Lake Stecenko
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I Thought Things Were Better
If y’all remember from my last post, things were better. That’s exactly what I would’ve liked to think. I still think about “it” everyday. It hurts to still be thinking about that. It just seems like that’s my only option at this point. As much as it hurts me to say that, it’s true. People tell me all the time to “just be happy”. Easier said...
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Things Are Finally Coming Together...Somewhat
I know it’s been a while since I’ve last updated. I hate how that’s what I always start off every text post these days. I really got to start updating more. A few things have changed as well as a few new things have happened to me. Let’s get started.
First, I don’t know if y’all were aware but I’ve been feeling “homeless” so to speak. Not...
March 2012
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I'm So Tired Of All The Lies
When will that boy ever learn that it’s not okay to lie? I don’t care how big or small it is. A lie is a lie in my book. No matter what the size is, all of which can have the same effect on people. Last night, I learned that my “best friend” lied to me on Wednesday. He lied by saying that he went to school on Wednesday when in all actuality he didn’t. When I learned...
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Gas Hitting $5 Per Gallon? →
If gas ever hit $5 per gallon, I honestly couldn’t afford to even drive to work or work in general.
Conversation on the phone with my second mom(:
Second Mom: You know momma loves you.
Me: I know. I didn't say she didn't, because I know she does. IDK.
Second Mom: I was talking about me.
(: I thought she was talking about my real mom, but she was really talking about her. Lol. I love her and the rest of my second family!
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February 2012
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So Tired
Blah! I’m so tired, y’all! It’s like one in the morning and I’m up doing my laundry and preparing for everything I have to do this week. This week is going to be a busy week! I wish I could go to sleep right now. I have to be up at like six. Yay for getting less than five hours of sleep tonight! Woot woot! Totes excited!(:
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Where Is "Home"?
This is probably the question I’ve been asking myself the most the past few weeks? Where is home? I honestly feel as though I have no home to go to. I’ve been carrying my suitcase and my comforter and pillow in the trunk of my car the past few weeks and been sleeping on the couch at people’s houses. I feel as though I have no home and sometimes don’t feel welcome wherever I...
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I Don't Deserve Him
As all of you already know, I’ve been crushing on my BFF Cameron for a REALLY long time now and probably always will. I’ve come to the conclusion though that he’s too good for me and that I don’t deserve him. If he did like me more than a friend, which he never will, he would definitely deserve somebody better than me. I know it may seem wrong/weird for me to be downing...
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Atlanta Trip
I thoroughly enjoyed my trip to Atlanta with my BFF Cameron. It was so much fun like legit. To make it even better/more exciting was that it was the first time I have ever driven to Atlanta in my new car and the first time I’ve ever driven to Atlanta in general. I’ve visited Atlanta numerous times, but have never actually driven myself there. Driving in/around Atlanta is not anywhere...
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I Really Wish I Could Be The One To Make Him Happy
My friendship with him and being around him makes me happy all the time. We don’t date or anything, but I wish we did. Everytime he’s “talking” to a guy or whatever, 99% of the time it’s not the type of guy he needs to be with. Then at the end of the day, he ends up getting hurt by them and it depresses me. I hate seeing him upset. Especially when guys he was with...
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Today Is Not My Day
I wish I could’ve just slept in today. As you can tell by the title, you can infer that things aren’t going so well. It all started when the manager from Hollister called me this morning. She mentioned that I’m actually scheduled to work this week and I work tomorrow from 8AM-1PM. Sadly I’m going to have to quit working at Hollister. Long story. After that I called the...
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I've Come To the Conclusion
Some may find this completely unnecessary, but I think this would be a rather smart thing for me to do. I’ve decided that with how much I visit my mom at work, in conjunction with how frustrating it is to find a parking space downtown near her job, I’m going to lease a parking space in one of the parking garages near her job. Questions, comments, concerns, or clarification?
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January 2012
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futurefagatron asked: Who yo best friend?
Waiting to hear back from my interview
This has got to be the most miserable thing I have ever gone through. I had an interview this past Friday and today’s Monday and I’m waiting to hear back from them. I hate having interviews on Friday’s because they’ll make you wait until the next Monday or Tuesday or whenever before you hear anything back from them. I wasn’t able to enjoy my weekend like I wanted to...
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The Reject Child
I swear I feel like the reject child to my dad. I’m sure when my dad found out I was a boy before I was born, he was probably so proud and had a general idea of what he wanted me to be like. I’m pretty sure I didn’t live up to his standards. First off, I’m gay. I think that right there is enough. What else is there? Oh yeah, I’ve never really been into sports so I...
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Conversation at Dos Caminos
Kris Jenner: I'm going to teach you a new Spanish word everyday from my Mexican heritage.
Scott Disick: You're Mexican?!
Kris: No...but I've been there.
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State Farm Commercial
Wife: Who are you talking to on the phone at three in the morning?!
Husband: Jake from State Farm.
Wife: Well we'll just see about that!
*Wife steals phone from husband*
Wife: What are you wearing 'Jake from State Farm'?!
Man: Uhm..khakis?
Wife: She sounds hideous!
Husband: Well she's a man.
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I hate local commercials.
Some look like the people that wanted the commercial only had $50 and a Flip video camera to record it with. They’re so pathetic. I often get a nice laugh out of them though. Especially via the ones with the cheesy plots and scripts. Lol. Got to love local businesses and their ambition, and cheap budgets, to get the word about their business out to the public. I’m such an advocate for...
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I think I'm getting better at this.
It’s definitely taking some time, but I think I’m making some progress. Every time I find myself crushing on him I remind myself and say, “He’s too good for you. Y’all will never be together” and try to smile after saying that. Hell, it’s only true. He is too good for me. He’s smart, he’s cute and talented! I don’t deserve that. Yeah,...
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I wish I didn't like him so damn much.
I don’t know what it is about him that I like so much. Maybe it’s how cute he is, how smart he his, his smile, and how he can always make me laugh and feel better. I’ve liked him for over a year now and still do to this day even though I know that we’ll probably never be together. It seems like with each day that goes by, my feelings for him grow stranger and I can’t...
December 2011
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Drinking orange juice with my grandmother
Oma: Now we just need champagne and we'll have "ambrosia".
Me: Mimosa?
November 2011
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WatchSMH! I honestly can’t believe that an educator, a special needs one at that, would talk to a student like that! Unbelievable.
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"Best friend" my ass!
It’s been a really, really, REALLY long time since I’ve done a text post and I feel pretty damn bad about it. Today, I basically just called off a friendship with what used to be my “best friend”. He always introduced me as his “best friend”. He certainly wouldn’t treat me like a best friend. Especially since he started dating his new boyfriend not too...
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I’m not a tease. I’m just a reminder of what you can’t have.
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October 2011
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Scooper Test
The scooper test I have to take for work is so FUCKING stupid/pointless. Not only am I wasting my time taking the damn thing, but my manager is wasting her time by taking the fucking time to grade it! The first time I took it, I made a 50. She also left a note on my test saying, “Please study! I think his is the worst test I’ve ever graded.” Was leaving that note on my paper...
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Possibly the best quote from "The Devil Wears...
Miranda Priestly: (to Andrea) You thought I didn't know. I've known what was happening for quite some time. It just took me a little while to find a suitable alternative for Jacqueline. And that James Holt job was just so absurdly overpaid that of course she jumped at it. So I just had to tell Irv that Jacqueline was unavailable. Truth is, there's no one that can do what I do. Including her. Any of the other choices would have found that job impossible and the magazine would have suffered. Especially because of the list. The list of designers, photographers, editors, writers, models, all of whom were found by me, nurtured by me and have promised me they will follow me whenever and if ever I choose to leave Runway. So he reconsidered.
September 2011
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I hope I don't have to close at work for a really,...
Ohmigosh! Last night was my first time ever closing at work and it fucking sucked! There were only three people at my store last night and that’s including me. I was hoping my manager would be there, but sadly she wasn’t. So some other chick that I’ve never met before had to train me. You would think it would be the crew leader, but it wasn’t. The reason why it sucked is...
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New job(:
I’m absolutely loving my new job at Bruster’s! It’s my first job ever and I’m really excited about it. I sadly have to wait two weeks for my first paycheck, but it’ll be well worth it with these hours I’m putting in. It’ll be nice to finally be making my own money and not having to ask my dad to put gas in my car every week. I started training and sadly...
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